Issi

"Ma ei taha sulle anda nagu omanik annab sulasele, Ma tahan sulle anda nii nagu Isa annab pojale."

Ice

Its been a hundred days and about a thousand kilometers of everyday since I last saw you.
Oh God makes sure to remind me of you, what you look like. Its not that I'm even searching...
For example a friend recommended me a christian magazine, ofc I said I dont care much for it and I wouldnt be reading it. But as God would have it, I was contacted by one of the people from that magazine who just collects info and they asked me my favorite verse in the bible and if they could publish it. Fair enough, since Im going to be in the magazine, might as well give it a flick through.
Naturally exactly the same place where my face would be in the next issue, there you are with your own favorite verse. Ironic really, but really endearing from God to look out for me like that.

I think its been about a hundred days or something...and its not that im not excited to see you, I just dont know when, and since it happens so rarely it kinda bums and blurrs me out, not that I would like it to happen more frequently either, I dont think I would like that.

Sigh. I'm just - waiting. Patiently waiting.

A lot of things have happened in my life but I dont really have anyone to truly share them with - that definitely humbles me.

Well it turns out I'll probably have to cross the valley of the shadow of death,  man I'm really not excited about it. God has confirmed it as well. I thought I was struggling now but I guess thats not the case. I wish I wasnt alone..yes I'm aware that papa is always with me as well. I have visited the desert once as soon as I came to faith, I'm still slightly scarred from it, not really scared, just hurt. But God knows best so whatever.

Well in many ways I'm not hoping and hoping to see you soon, Iii just don't really feel emotional about it, cuz I dont have faith that Ill be seeing you soon, later for sure.

Well thats all from me.. Oh no wait, Im going on a canoe trip I think at the end of the month God willing, hope the weather is good as well. So yeah..

I would say Love ya, but you don't really know me or seem to care, so I'll just say God bless and whatever comes be it Gods will not mine or anyone elses. But love ya unconditionally though, thats a given ;)