kodu..

I miss my home...Not where I'm siting in,not this structure of wooden beams,wool,stone .. ect ...not the place where I spend every night,sleeping... no.. this is not my home.
My home is somewhere beyond,beyond the stars,beyond galaxies,beyond what eye can see...I haven't visited home in a while,I've been stuck in this materialistic world we call earth.I have bounded my imagination to this planet where I don't belong.I'm now,setting my imagination free again,I want to go there,visit it,I hope I can...Where are you?My angels,my guardians,my true family...my soul is harmonious,even though it's a little bit leaderish,still... my soul is harmonious,angelic,otherwordly...I don't really want to be like most of the humans are,I'm more than just 2 bland colours,I'm the colour spectrum,my soul connects when I have colourful clothes,my being is not human,I'm away,in space,far from here,my true home is far away.
I know I'm not alone,I'm not the only one who feels like this..I saw a street artist...he spraypainted pictures of a planet... and the people made a circle around him-they had no clue,they had no idea,what he was really painting,they were just human...they didn't know,that the artist didn't paint ''just a planet'' he painted home,he longed for home...I knew,I saw his longing,I felt it...I wish him the best,I hope he has visitors from home,someday.. I hope he can see who he really is,and accept it...As I have accepted my being,not being human..

I'm almost there :)

on olnud pikad 9 aastat,mõni helgem mõni süngem :) kokkuvõtteks on hea ju?Kõik mu omandatud elementaar teadmised on pandud otsustavasse testi,eksam,me kõik kardame seda,me kõik kujutame ette 101 võimalust kuidas läbi kukkuda,me kõik kogeme seda.Tulemas viimane pingutus enne suve,seejärel saab puhata.Tuleb välja,et olen omandanud 9 aastat eesti keele teadmisi nelja peale,6 punkti jäi mul parimast võimalikust hindest puudu,ehk viiest-olen rahul :) 9 aastat olen treeninud oma aju,olen pidanud pinget taluma kogu see aeg selleks,et teha see kõige raskem eksam meie elus.. nelja peale..teisisõnu matemaatika.Olen rahul :) Tulemas on see,milles olen alati oma oskustelt/teadmistelt kõige parem olnud,ehk inglise keele eksam ... Ootan huviga :) -
Veider,mul oli tunne,et oli vaja seda jagada siia,blogisse..eiteagi miks kuid tehtud see sai :)
Muidugi! Ma ju tahtsin enda olekust ka rääkida.Tunduvalt parem kui mu eelmine postitus :)
Ehk olen saanud aega,olen leidnud õige raja jälle ülesse,hea on olla :) tunnen ,et kõik on hea,ning läheb aina paremaks :) Hea tunne on,tundub,et see väike valgusekene on leitud :) Mu armas ja kallis päikene on ka välja tulnud,nii hea on olla :G Soojus,rahu :) kerge meeleolu,koosolemis rõõm :) meeletult hea :) Olen meeletul tänuväärne oma isiklikule Päiksele,ta on alati mind soojendamas,armastan teda :)