*smash* fuck you! - dealing with Frustration...

Holy .. shit... I have never ever ever been so frustrated in my life, anger sets deeper and deeper. I don't know what to do, I just feel like I wanna kick someones ass so bad, that their grandparents feel it. For real I don't know what's gone into me, but this anger is starting to get out of control and I don't really know how to deal with it anymore... To be honest, I'm kind of frightened myself, I'm worried about the sore fuck heads who think they know the world... The WORST part is, I'm one of them and that just pisses me off even more and makes me more of an egoist and even more to myself and even more depressed and even more angry and even more of an egoist etc.. THAT is not good, such matters should be looked into immediately, but I don't know how. Since I've never been in this sort of state before, I need to figure out a new system, great.. more introversion&milk please... IRONICALLY, I'm the one who listens to fucking Mozart classics and other classical and/or calm music, REALLY calm. What's up with that? Well, as I've said before... ''You may find yourself in a position in life in which you have no control,when you've reached that point hit restart and the controls are yours again...'' - I guess I reached this far... again, so I'm going to need to devise a plan how to fuck off for a while. May life have mercy upon you poor souls, you're going to need it.

What would you do?

Yet again I contemplate about life... All these structures, systems ,the big system.. all of it just to bound us... Why do we want to control, to manipulate, to create systems for our being, to destroy, to build... So little is left of our being, we're destroying everything we used to know, to call dear, everything that is truly close to our hearts. Why? Sure, I have a destructive nature towards people... well I developed it due to circumstances, I don't mind it, but I can very well be an exception, why does everyone else have to be like it, the general society just wants to destruct and construct constantly. Faster and faster... Why do we need to be up close all the time? Can we not just scatter around and live more or less a frugal life, be in lesser connections with one another and manage on our own. Wouldn't that make the entire worlds natural balance much more balanced? We ARE killing ourselves and EVERYTHING around us. Blind... so blind... I think in advancement, I'll grow into being ashamed to be a human, to be a creature that calls themselves intelligent, that calls themselves wise, that calls themselves advanced. I'm afraid we are neither of those things... him You and I are worthless when it all comes together...I don't understand, why are we focusing on ourselves, our being, why are we fighting ourselves, why do we not notice what's around us, we are not the only species on this planet, why don't we notice everything else, how they act, how they think, how they feed themselves. We're so focused around how to kill one another rather than how to aid nature or at least help ourselves... I don't have hope for you,us all. I am becoming ashamed to be this being, would I give it all up? Not life, but being a human... I don't know... Would you?

osavus...

Jah, ma olen äärmiselt võimekas, ma suutsin reedel oma jala välja väänata niivisi, et ma ei tohi teha nüüd 6 nädalat trenni jalg sinine ja puha, kvaliteet... Ja nüüd otsustasin veel haigeks ja jääda :D 39.1 palavik (Y) . Ma olen päris andekas...