Numbing thoughts

So why is everyone cautious around me... Why is my judgment important? Maybe people don't get judged too often, and when someone is doing it, it spooks them? I cannot, even though I'd really really want to and perhaps try to be the authority that everyone looks up to. I wonder if there are more numb people like me around. Someone who doesn't care in a way even loves the misery that others are in to compensate for their own. I wonder if anyone can relate to me, sure there are a few who can relate to my morale basis, but that's only because I speak what's the most natural in my sense, and they have to agree, because it's in human nature.. Even IF they've(like most) departed from nature without looking back. Sure I'm not a biologist or a helpless green organisation's member who tries desperately to save nature etc. No, I care more about the fascinating human mind, the natural instinctive thoughts over this and that and the whole concept of defensive mechanisms that humans use to protect their gigantic egos from other even bigger human minds. I can give advice on a few topics, or matters(to be precise) yet I don't consider myself as a ''helping type'' no, that's not me, I'd categorize myself under an ''observing type''. A person who likes to see and find logical conclusions over various actions that humans and animals have alike... I've been told, out of sheer goodness, that I'm special or.. different or even better ... UNIQUE, now I find that hard to believe. In a human world, I suck at maths, I'm not very good in any academic subject, my language is maybe slightly over the average, but nothing too special, I'm not too good in P.E, sure I can manage, but nothing exceptional.. Neither am I good in human metrics such as psychology or even a little bit of biology ( I would put that under academic ). So overall I don't do well in school, and at times I can be a sociopath. Meaning that I hate people and try and tend to avoid them etc. I can express myself rather freely and with well phrased sentences(often) I can perhaps compete with over the average spokesman. But I don't shine in any possible aspect... How can one be unique when they have nothing to brag about or even call unique about themselves? I honestly don't know what people think about me in that regards... Maybe one of you(aside from me), who reads this, can enlighten me of my distinctiveness amongst other specimen like me(humans)... I'm almost certain that I'm talking into a mirror though, as in I don't get any material back :D But we'll see...