Lets get it started!

Kevin's back in the house b****! Hey,how YOU doin'?I'm back,I mean.. I'm actually back!It feels so good,this mask thingymajiggy has been broken,and I'm back in the game,I feel alive :P Finally managed to get my ass back on track,no Alex it doesn't mean I'm going to party and drink alot...still got no respect for that shit...But I'm back ! And you can really tell from my music taste,cos.. cos... I'm gay that way.. That's how I show my feelings .. by sharing them and getting them into the vibe with me... sure I can talk and be a girl all day about my feelings... that don't make you feel them .. so listen with me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKqV7DB8Iwg&feature=avmsc2 enjoy :)

yes,no,maybe?I don't know..

wow,life is full of surprises...But yknow,sometimes..all you can do is... Flip the middle finger and shout out ''FUCK... YOU'' and it makes you feel better :) And after being fooled around a little ... You realize,you GOT experience! Way to go,lifes road awaits ?Right? I mean,experience is really important in life...I have some,that's great!So... I guess it's time to pick up thy bag with broken glass in it... and walk on the road of life... And believe me,before you know... there's already someone whose making you a new glass object to show their affection towards yourself...

Vol 666%

I was at a birthday party,just a day ago(depends how you count) and...to be honest,my expectations about a party are all the same,sure,a good time,ect... it's still not my type of an event.I don't like to drink,I pretty-much despise alcohol,the hatred I had for it has grown stronger,why? Because I did not feel any effect whilst I consumed alcohol,meaning that I didn't feel the ''buzz'' ,BUT after-effects (hangover??) are fucking horrible,and I don't want to feel it again.If I could stay away from alcohol,for so long,without any real experience,then now...I'll stay even further away from it because now I have that aweful experience that keeps it that way...
Other than that,the people there,were awesome,very friendly very cool guys,and I liked them
*I hope that I didn't leave a bastard stamp amongst those people* , but yeah,partying is just not in my nature..

Be free..

Mõtlesin,et viskan ühe loo,mis väljendab ideaalset mu hetkelist seisu...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWWAi7FCsYw

keda see huvitab,siis kuulake sõnu ning see väljendab väga väga hästi mu hetkest eluolekut :)

Rooftops..

I can't hold much of my mysery in anymore,my smile is beginning to break,my thoughts begin to decease,I'm no longer up in the sky,I've reached the part where I finally notice my fall and the upcoming ground... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ngxw6xWf2eA this should explain my mood,let it carry you ,it will probably take you here,where I'm now...

arvati,et see lause on sobiv minule...

Kas teadmine pole siis seni miskit,kuni teine ei tea sind teadvat?
Persius

consumed by metal

well,lately I've been listening to metal at home,and I've picked up my guitar and learned a few riffs,which are actually pretty hard ones,I FINALLY learned metal picking,I never really bothered to figure it out,and I just randomly did,so I made my first metal riff,not that sweet,but sounds quite good...so yeah... Right now,I'm consumed by In Flames,I like the band,been listening to them for a few days straight...Yesterday while,I was walking home alone,listening to Iron Maiden,I saw a dark hooded figure (Y),it didn't really scare me,but it was a bit weird...it was for like .. 2 seconds,and it dissapeared...and it was like a 100m away from me....he wore dark robes,like dark brown...no not the ones in Star Wars,but similar :D:D:D But it's been ... metally for me... I ain't happy,I ain't sad either,a bit empty though...

and it hit..

First strike of darkness has been marked in my wound...Mood is going down like a wingless plane,I'm not afraid though,I'm looking at these demons blank in the face,and I strike back,you wont take me,not this summer,not today,last summer you got the best of me,this time I'll fight,as you can see,I'm turning emo already -.- ,it's not in my nature though,it's just that... it hasn't been so great,sure I can put up a yay face and even be happy,inside it ain't that simple,but I'll take on anything that demons throw at me...I had told my angels that I can do this on my own,they're not interfering,which is probably why all went so weird and bad...but they need a rest,so let it be like this...

Well,now...I'm back listening to metalcore,new artist is ''In Flames'' just one song though,because still, ''In Flames'' for me is a bit too deep...but yeah,other that that,in health I'm doing well...(Y) so that's good..

darkness...

Is darkness following me everywhere I go,is it lurking in the shadows,hiding from me and striking when I'm too close?Or is darkness been everywhere lately? If so,then why?Why is everything so dim,why is there so little light?Have people just lost hope?What the hell is going on lately?I would like to know those answers,I want to know if I'm the only one who darkness follows,I hope I am,that means others are spared,but I don't think I'm the only one...

Chakra? Channels

Logically,I should feel bad.Emotionally,I do feel bad,but I'm not sad,rather happy actually,I noticed that I've channeled my emotions to a whole more complex chakra channel,perhaps it's the heart chackra,or even the ''Soul Star'',because for some very reason,I love my people,all what surrounds me and to me,that's funny,because my usual state is rather pessimistic than optimistic.I think that I have taken my spiritual self to a whole new level,and it's quite powerful,which means I have alot of emotions cruising towards me,that I might have to support with..

after effect...

My life hasn't changed,yet it has changed so huge,that my spirit can't keep up with the pace,either I'm too far ahead,or too far behind life...I've been home the entire of today,well yesterday,if we want to get picky...Either way I've been home listening to fast paced music,that is somewhat agressive,but soulful,and no it's not rock or any gengre that you people listen to,I'm very sure you've never listen to this kind of music before... Okay,you guys talked me into it... I'm going to share what I've been listening to the entire day,it somehow regenerates me,but not fully,I feel a change of state is upcoming,which means that I will have to change my usual behavior,and I already have,but I have to change ... no... enhance my spirit/soul to another state... I don't miss what I've lost,yet I've lost so much,life amazes me,I'm blinded by wonders that surround me.Each and every one of you is special,I need to explore,I need to see all of you,I need you to see me,my angels,my true nature,I trust you,don't let me down.
I love each and every one of you :)

Did you know,that earth is going to be in another solar storm,which is stronger than your usual solar wrath,and did you know,that earths magnetational barrier,is being tempered which each storm,and when it's tempered enough with,it blasts back into its normal position,which generates a little mischief upon our technology,electricity will be moved by that blast..ah,I probably dazzeled you I'm sorry,I've learned alot about our universe,and I'm sharing it...still... I think I haven't found my rightful planet where I do belong...oh well...The search goes on-Meanwhile,there's SOO much to explore!!! our earth is full of alien life forms(for me) it's just amazing :)

okay,I talk too much...here's the link I promised: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISzK6e237II listen to it,I bet you get the chills,when you do.. :)

two steps from Hell

may my life be big,be worth,may I be full of will,may I go far,may my dreams never end...I have a destiny and I'm going for it!

Longing...

suddenly,I start to feel darkness collecting around me...I need to keep away from it,I don't need it at the moment...
I've been thinking alot lately,I want it all back,I want it so bad it generates a feeling of longingness...I long for her,I needed to be sure...I hope she understands,I'm sure she does,she's clever...I know now,that I truly do love,and yes,it is possible,but I think to myself,can it be only,when both love,that you can feel love..I hope so :) she's gone for so long now...I can't wait to see her smile,her eyes,smell her,feel her,I need her to be close to me...it might seem,that I´m obsessed...I'm not,because I know what it feels like to be obsessed in her,I was,exactly a year ago...this is wayy different,it's big... very big...I just feel it..let's see what happens :)

:S:S:S

ja üks eluetapp läbi :S ,miks ta nii tegi ,ma ei tea,aga lõpp tundub olevat,ma ei tea kas on...,vastik...

in other news:jalkat mängides,otsustasin osav olla ja kukkuda... käsi kipsis *aplaus*,aga õnneks on põrutus ... niiet väga hullu pole

best of you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgRAMUxk-_c

lihtsalt nii tunnen ennast selle lauluna :( päris kurb tegelikult,maitea kõik on nii segane minujaoks jälle...tahaks õnne,tahaks rõõmu,tahaks ühte elusõõmu..