Tonight I dance alone

Mother I've seen too much, I hate to live my life
Forgot every word you told me, stubborn little child, (angel of your life)
I have to find my Eden now, the gates I left behind
But the pain will remain
No power to gain

Now I have time to dwell on self awareness, dreadful crime
I saw the colors too bright, not knowing that I was blind
I slayed a man who took a chance and drank the forbidden wine
The map I draw reveals that I have been complete , a machine indeed




Faith is inching away from my heart. Slowly I lose to life only to self-destruct.
I can no longer breathe like I used to, I can no longer hope like I used to.
Losing my touch of reality, I fall into insanity. This vessel I govern is becoming tedious to maintain. Annoyed by my misfortune I think of slaying my own being to free me from these shackles of belief. Fate take my soul and do so fast, before I take control. I've thought of writing down all my knowledge before I cave. I can no longer give anything other than what I know. My love has dried up, my soul screams escape.

I hoped to live and die in your arms, but love is driving me to an early grave. Words and logic take me in as a disciple of life. Universe has not forgotten about me, but I don't think I care much for what's in store for me at this point. I suppose it's all pointless anyway, I've lived here for so long and so many times, that there's nothing I haven't seen or experienced. Death is not really that scary, I suppose it's similar to being born. If I managed that sort of pain, then I'm sure death is a walk in the park.

I'm not depressed at all though, just burnt out. I feel my inner fire, from a roaring blaze, all that's left is a twindeling candle flame.

End take me, I accept your embrace, I long for your warmth.