Love of God

''Jesus is a gentleman, he won't just intrude into your heart. You have to first open the door for him.''

I thought about it today, when people say that it's so creepy when someone says that God is watching them. Well.. now that I somewhat understand God I find it not creepy at all and actually soothing. In my past self, not in light I would have said yes, the thought truly is creepy, but that's only because I wanted to hide from him. I wanted to hide myself from God. I did things like smoke pot, watch violence etc etc, and obviously I wouldn't want God my heavenly father to catch me doing all that. Now I've unlocked my door, I am really pushing very hard to try and not to sin, I've cut back on almost everything that I do not actually need. I feel much better and much more whole when I know that I'm no longer destroying myself for the sake of ''entertainment''. Now I question who was it entertaining for in the first place. I see the violence, I see the perversion of this world, the desire to just give up on trying and just go with the flow. It's horrible. Why would anyone want to drink alcohol and party so hard only to feel so bad tomorrow? What exactly does that achieve? What is one running away from when they turn on the TV or a videogame and refuse to talk to anyone about anything really. Why do we need all this ''entertainment'' to entertain ourselves so that we wouldn't have to deal with life right? Oddly enough once you give up on all that entertainment, I for one discovered family, that I've pushed away. They've been doing the same and now that I shine light upon that, each and every family member now understands that yeah.. why were we doing that, we should hang out have fun family time together. Help each other out when we can. Once you open yourself up to God and start really learning who Jesus is, you start becoming a better man. Not this vague illusion that you've told yourself that yeah.. I'm a good man because I can list all the good things I've done for each finger of my hand. That's not a good man, when you truly want to do good, you just do good, you don't expect anything for it, you don't need anything for it, the world is so void of beauty of love that it is LITERALLY collapsing in on itself. Love is selflessness, God teaches you love through Jesus. Who doesn't want to love, it is literally the only thing you people go around talking and thinking about, be it in movies be it wherever. We've started to mistake Lust for LOVE? What? Lust has nothing to do with love, if someone is sexually attractive, does that make them lovely, loveable? What truly makes a human beautiful is their soul, and when that soul is full of love of God, then truly I tell you, those people SHINE.