UP ahead

I divided this into sections so all of you who are tunnelvisioned in your mind can observe what this post is about, clearly there are people who'd ''like'' to read but think that it's around one basis of my life that I keep bringing up. Search for depth before concluding. And thanks for pointing that out ;)

Clearly a lot has been going on since I last visited this ''corner'' of the internet. I have gained a lot of experience with different spices in life and concluded, that my being does in fact differ from others... For example - I have.. Realized, that in my perspective on life, a man should at least faintly know how to dance(classical dances or latino etc... though.. hip-hop and such does NOT count)
and for perhaps a second example... Social EVENTS! hugeee emphasis on ''events'' are perhaps a far better way to pass the time in comparison to for example going to ''clubs'' and such. For a fact that soical events actually do educate you and add that USEFUL layer onto your being, rather than just chugging it all down in a club as an ale or any other drink and then sweating it all out and call yourself experienced and differ from everyone else that hasn't done it, not realizing that you're actually on the same level as they just with more booze in your head(gathered due time).

Now knowing this, puts me in a position where I view the world from an entirely different perspective thus gaining more enemies than your other ''subtle'' being(someone who does not really take part in wordly beings), of course this is specifically bad for me, because a person such as I tends to speak their mind about everything that seems necessary or un necessary(at times :) ).

However I wonder if I can manage, to put that difference out there in a way that, you may not exactly see it, but FEEL it - yes, the key element to what I want to achieve is make people feel a certain way, to do this I must find out if ''difference'' is actually a feeling, or can it be degraded into small groups of feeling clusters or clouds.. that in the big picture give us the deffinition of ''difference'' then I must find a way to project it out of me through my nature and we should have the results, ofc if that's not already what I'm putting out ;) (which I am, but with words, I want to do it passively though, with the other person not aware of it).

Well as it seems I'm now at a point where my next ''achievement'' is quite obvious, and nothing left than just, going for the goal, sounds fairly reasonable enough.

Another thing I'd like to point out( if you've reached this far) is that understanding, is within one in my eyes, and that can be fatally good for it, a.k.a yes I do ''miss'',every now and then[rather often actually, too often and in increasing strenght(damn it)]. (I'm sure understanding this wouldn't be a problem, again, if so then feel free to ask me what is that about ;) obviously in a private conversation)