The cure for perfect sanity

I attract darkness as it seems, but it doesn't harm me, it likes to be around me. I have shielded myself in my own dark purple bubble, and I seemingly observe what is going on. Somehow I have changed myself to perhaps illuminate a little darkness, I have managed to somehow put my insecurity in my energy in return droping others security. It seems to be a constant non stop mental war between light and darkness, while shades lurk in the side taking every fallen soul to keep locked away. This war has no winners... Then again it seems that when I am asked to pick a side I just stray off, I don't pick any sides, it appears that I'm somewhat of a rouge in mental worlds... It turns out that you can neither love me or hate me, or be secure around me, I'm the balance saving your sanity and making you insane, hopefully slowly yet fast enough I try and drop your world, bend your truth&will,bring you down to a different state of mind - if this works and my output is poisonous enough then perhaps your corruption can be stopped.. On my side however, it seems that I have been pulled into a mental vortex that shifts between different states of mental energy, I wonder... how many illusions do I have left? I haven't put many out lately, as if I want people to enter, why? Perhaps harm them... Now this harm is what I put out to everyone, EXCEPT this one being, why? Why do I choose... Does that being deserve more than others? Or have I grown to care about that one person enough that I have no reason to harm, or am I set out to repair instead of harm? Who knows, and to be honest it's nice to see myself giving atleast 1 mind a break in this world :) .. I suppose you deserve it.