Insomnia

The air here is thin,I guess I really was up high,although I'm going to enjoy the downfall,it has blinded me...I'm fighting something that doesn't exist,but it stands right beside me.The unknown virus has spread over my body,poisoning and taking life from the inside...It makes me wonder ...
When will I grow tired of this fall?Will eye,or is this virus making me enjoy this downfall,maybe because I'm so ignorant I enjoy it so much...Ignorance on the other hand is delivered by negativity,am or is... my life negative?Rather bland,boring and yes negative in some cases,minds...
They have created ignorance in me...But why?perhaps they are not as simple minded as it seems ... they aren't stupid for sure,but complexity is of a lack...It makes me wonder,if they enjoy it,it seems to generate them a feeling of satisfaction and what's left is lust for more,heh... I guess I'm not that alone after all,misery attracts everyone...Though not everyone is as chaotic as me,even not the closest minds ... still they wish to harm by nature..weird...I have no reason to prevent them doing so either,they have just crossed the chaotic side of me... Which wishes them bad luck,and mostly they get it...
Though this decay of such ... from the inside,is something new,this numbness is of a different kind...I'm not tired and I don't want to sleep,but I sleep so much...a bit stressed,yes,that I am..but of what. ''Why can't I see what's in front of me?''- those words keep running around in my head...I'm being changed...should I let this happen,wow... joy for others? That doesn't cure me..They can be as joyous as they can,even because of me...but that does not cure me,so I have no reason to provide joy for the lot...


What is the cure to my life? .. . --