it is science..

I wonder if I could dig into occult science,I'm in search of a book,which is,well... rather old..the book itself is almost 500 years old and the knowledge it possesses...I don't know how old that is.. It's in latin,but there's also a translated version into english.Why would I need such a book?Education my friends,education is the key to my ''success''.However,obtaining that education from that book,is probably rather difficult,IF NOT impossible.Because I can't seem to find it's existence in the web,still history books tell me it exist,so I'll believe those,ofc I haven't done a deep search yet,about finding it,but I'll get around to it.So yes,my world is spinning in a different direction from now on ;) A good question was asked from me,''when did you stop being human?'' To be honest,I don't know,I have never been what you call ''normal'' nowadays.Yes still I am a human,and I AM feeling feelings,and I am searching love like any other human being,still...it's not the first time I've heard such a saying towards me.Lately,people have been sort of ''noticing'' my existance,they sort of stare or ''wonder'' about me,they're not afraid of me,but what they feel towards me does fall into a category of ''fear'' perhaps...So yes the change in me does affect outerworld,not physically,you can't see the change,but mentally or emotionally,you can feel it...