after effect...

My life hasn't changed,yet it has changed so huge,that my spirit can't keep up with the pace,either I'm too far ahead,or too far behind life...I've been home the entire of today,well yesterday,if we want to get picky...Either way I've been home listening to fast paced music,that is somewhat agressive,but soulful,and no it's not rock or any gengre that you people listen to,I'm very sure you've never listen to this kind of music before... Okay,you guys talked me into it... I'm going to share what I've been listening to the entire day,it somehow regenerates me,but not fully,I feel a change of state is upcoming,which means that I will have to change my usual behavior,and I already have,but I have to change ... no... enhance my spirit/soul to another state... I don't miss what I've lost,yet I've lost so much,life amazes me,I'm blinded by wonders that surround me.Each and every one of you is special,I need to explore,I need to see all of you,I need you to see me,my angels,my true nature,I trust you,don't let me down.
I love each and every one of you :)

Did you know,that earth is going to be in another solar storm,which is stronger than your usual solar wrath,and did you know,that earths magnetational barrier,is being tempered which each storm,and when it's tempered enough with,it blasts back into its normal position,which generates a little mischief upon our technology,electricity will be moved by that blast..ah,I probably dazzeled you I'm sorry,I've learned alot about our universe,and I'm sharing it...still... I think I haven't found my rightful planet where I do belong...oh well...The search goes on-Meanwhile,there's SOO much to explore!!! our earth is full of alien life forms(for me) it's just amazing :)

okay,I talk too much...here's the link I promised: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISzK6e237II listen to it,I bet you get the chills,when you do.. :)

two steps from Hell

may my life be big,be worth,may I be full of will,may I go far,may my dreams never end...I have a destiny and I'm going for it!

Longing...

suddenly,I start to feel darkness collecting around me...I need to keep away from it,I don't need it at the moment...
I've been thinking alot lately,I want it all back,I want it so bad it generates a feeling of longingness...I long for her,I needed to be sure...I hope she understands,I'm sure she does,she's clever...I know now,that I truly do love,and yes,it is possible,but I think to myself,can it be only,when both love,that you can feel love..I hope so :) she's gone for so long now...I can't wait to see her smile,her eyes,smell her,feel her,I need her to be close to me...it might seem,that I´m obsessed...I'm not,because I know what it feels like to be obsessed in her,I was,exactly a year ago...this is wayy different,it's big... very big...I just feel it..let's see what happens :)

:S:S:S

ja üks eluetapp läbi :S ,miks ta nii tegi ,ma ei tea,aga lõpp tundub olevat,ma ei tea kas on...,vastik...

in other news:jalkat mängides,otsustasin osav olla ja kukkuda... käsi kipsis *aplaus*,aga õnneks on põrutus ... niiet väga hullu pole

best of you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgRAMUxk-_c

lihtsalt nii tunnen ennast selle lauluna :( päris kurb tegelikult,maitea kõik on nii segane minujaoks jälle...tahaks õnne,tahaks rõõmu,tahaks ühte elusõõmu..

kodu..

I miss my home...Not where I'm siting in,not this structure of wooden beams,wool,stone .. ect ...not the place where I spend every night,sleeping... no.. this is not my home.
My home is somewhere beyond,beyond the stars,beyond galaxies,beyond what eye can see...I haven't visited home in a while,I've been stuck in this materialistic world we call earth.I have bounded my imagination to this planet where I don't belong.I'm now,setting my imagination free again,I want to go there,visit it,I hope I can...Where are you?My angels,my guardians,my true family...my soul is harmonious,even though it's a little bit leaderish,still... my soul is harmonious,angelic,otherwordly...I don't really want to be like most of the humans are,I'm more than just 2 bland colours,I'm the colour spectrum,my soul connects when I have colourful clothes,my being is not human,I'm away,in space,far from here,my true home is far away.
I know I'm not alone,I'm not the only one who feels like this..I saw a street artist...he spraypainted pictures of a planet... and the people made a circle around him-they had no clue,they had no idea,what he was really painting,they were just human...they didn't know,that the artist didn't paint ''just a planet'' he painted home,he longed for home...I knew,I saw his longing,I felt it...I wish him the best,I hope he has visitors from home,someday.. I hope he can see who he really is,and accept it...As I have accepted my being,not being human..

I'm almost there :)

on olnud pikad 9 aastat,mõni helgem mõni süngem :) kokkuvõtteks on hea ju?Kõik mu omandatud elementaar teadmised on pandud otsustavasse testi,eksam,me kõik kardame seda,me kõik kujutame ette 101 võimalust kuidas läbi kukkuda,me kõik kogeme seda.Tulemas viimane pingutus enne suve,seejärel saab puhata.Tuleb välja,et olen omandanud 9 aastat eesti keele teadmisi nelja peale,6 punkti jäi mul parimast võimalikust hindest puudu,ehk viiest-olen rahul :) 9 aastat olen treeninud oma aju,olen pidanud pinget taluma kogu see aeg selleks,et teha see kõige raskem eksam meie elus.. nelja peale..teisisõnu matemaatika.Olen rahul :) Tulemas on see,milles olen alati oma oskustelt/teadmistelt kõige parem olnud,ehk inglise keele eksam ... Ootan huviga :) -
Veider,mul oli tunne,et oli vaja seda jagada siia,blogisse..eiteagi miks kuid tehtud see sai :)
Muidugi! Ma ju tahtsin enda olekust ka rääkida.Tunduvalt parem kui mu eelmine postitus :)
Ehk olen saanud aega,olen leidnud õige raja jälle ülesse,hea on olla :) tunnen ,et kõik on hea,ning läheb aina paremaks :) Hea tunne on,tundub,et see väike valgusekene on leitud :) Mu armas ja kallis päikene on ka välja tulnud,nii hea on olla :G Soojus,rahu :) kerge meeleolu,koosolemis rõõm :) meeletult hea :) Olen meeletul tänuväärne oma isiklikule Päiksele,ta on alati mind soojendamas,armastan teda :)